I'm not Strong

I'm not Strong

Seeing you now,
It sends a cold fire down my spine.
The ghost of a smile lingers on your perfect lips,
And your strong, cerulean eyes,
Are as eerie and beautiful as a quiet moon,
Whispering over a dark night.

It's been so, so dark.

Your firm, delicate hands,
Hold in them my own.
It's always been like that,
But I should be holding you,
Watching over you,
As your hair frames your face,
In fragile slumber.

But you can barely close your eyes.

Fresh scars mar your pale skin,
And you shrink away from me,
I lean forward and kiss them lightly.
I'm scared you'll break,
You look so weak,
I've never seen you like this,
But you'll recover.

You always do.

Question is will I?
A bitter laugh escapes me,
''I've always needed you.''
As selfish as it was I wanted to die,
That night you sacrificed yourself.
I wanted to take your place but,
You kept me alive.

Even in death.

You encircle your limp arms around me,
''I'm here.''
I shield you with a strong embrace,
Until our lips meet silently.
I tell you to sleep,
You tell me to stay,
As if I would walk away,

But I'm always running to you.